Tuesday, February 25, 2014

About me! An attempt to start blogging again.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about getting into this blogging thing again. I mean, I still read blogs every day and want to use it as a tool to document my life and my learnings and my adorable children but then I stall out and never write anything. Let’s be honest, there’s a chance that after this blog, it may be another year before there is another post. My guess is that post is going to begin a lot like this one. Kind of the way that this one sounds a lot like the beginning of the one post I made last year.

It is so weird to think about where I was when I started this blog to where I am now.

This blog started just over 5 years ago when I was pregnant with my now 5 YEAR OLD (wth?) H-Dog. We were living on the other side of the state and I thought maybe this blog would help me stay in touch with people at home. Seven days after H was born, we moved back to my hometown and there really wasn’t a need to blog anymore but I kind of kept it up. I was never very consistent.

Then life happened.

I finally got a job I had wanted for years and started my “career” when I was 7 months pregnant with baby #2 – now the maniacal 3 and a half year old, B-Dizzle.

Life was good. Then life wasn’t so good.

Shortly after B’s first birthday their dad, my then husband moved out. We weren’t happy. It was a trial separation. I really thought we would work everything out and be better on the other side.

After 6 months he moved back in. We began to work on things.

2 months later he was gone again; this time for good.

Then my “new life” started happening.

I spent the next few months trying to pick up the pieces of my existence while simultaneously being strong for my kids. If I keep this blogging thing up, maybe I’ll talk about my divorce more someday. It’s actually one of the things that I feel like I could “share” with the world because it wasn’t nasty. No dirty laundry aired. But I stand as proof that there is life afterward.

Throughout it all, I developed a pretty sweet anxiety disorder which, among other things, completely eliminated my appetite. Some people eat their feelings, I preferred to starve mine.

I moved into an apartment I could barely afford because I wanted my kids to have something “nice”. The complex also had a gym. Due to our custody arrangement, I had more free time than I knew what to do with. I decided that eventually my appetite would come back but I didn’t want the pounds to come back too so I started working out. My appetite DID come back but by then working out had become habit so I stuck with it.

In about 12 months I lost almost 80 pounds. 30 pounds in tears and 50 in sweat – I like to say. The last year has been spent trying to lose another 15 but basically I’m just lucky maintain.

Early last year I also met a wonderful guy. I will have to spend an entire post talking about that relationship. Let’s just say that I carry a lot of scars from my past and he’s got to be some kind of saint to actually put up with some of it.

I have a lot of big ideas of things that I want to share about my current journey:
• How my ex and I co-parent successfully (for the most part)
• How weight loss has truly effected my life – good and bad
• Having a good relationship after a not so good one
• Surviving single parenting
• Rebuilding my life
• Plus a whole bunch of pure mom blog posts about how fantastic H-Dog and B-Dizzle really are!

So that’s me! That’s my life. I’m a divorced mama to two amazing little guys, girlfriend to one pretty awesome big guy, doing a job that I love, pretending to know anything at all about fitness, and proving that there is life after the big D and sometimes, just sometimes, Act Two is even better than Act One.

1 comment:

  1. So happy for you Lacey! It sounds like you are happier than ever and enjoying life to the fullest with your adorable little men and your new man too! (I still follow your blog and we can be "sometime bloggers" together). Would love to catch up sometime. Proud of you!